Day One, Mani/Moon Devotional Cycle

Day One, Moon/Mani devotional, Full Moon

I thought when I opened up to the full moon that it would take me to my instinctual center, my gut, my groin, and access my werewolf or berserker self. That is not where I found it vibrating in my body this full moon night. The moon entered me from the top of my head and bee-lined it for my heart, the center of my body's emotional processing center. My heart pounded as I lay there in the tub, submerged in the warm water, out of the stern cold winter night. Staying present can be tough when caught off guard and when the body is feeling something uncomfortable rising up. It took me somewhere totally unexpected...here are my thoughts:

When a giant tree

Falls in the forest

It becomes the center

Of a vibrational event

Sound

Boom

Sight

Crash

Environmentally

Felt in the ecosystem

By the others It sends waves in all directions

Tiny ripples and

Then big waves

Through the ground It may take some

Time

But it will reach

And touch

Everything

Mom

You fell

I was too far away

At first I felt the

Boom

Crash

Then

Out of necessity

I learned how to stay In front of the ripples

The waves

Always just behind me

On my heels

I can run no more

I let the ground

Buckle beneath me I am overtaken

And

Fall

Please don't leave me

Did I leave you

Did I abandon you

I wasn't there

I'm sorry

Now

I realize

Maybe

That there was

No other way

Is

No other way

The tide comes in

And

The tide goes out

Always I can not

Hold the tide

I can not

Go back to

The old normal

I have lost you

And in that

I have lost

I am lost

Because I fear

Loss